• Do you hear what I hear?

    My wish for my kids would be that for just one Christmas they could experience what God blessed me with for a dozen-plus Christmases.  I was the youngest in our family and was robbed of more of the years together than my siblings and cousins, but boy was I blessed.

    When you have 11 people cohabitating in a little green house of about eight hundred square feet, you do things in coordination.  The meals happen together.  Games happen together.  Discussions, singing, storytelling, ‘washing up,’ happened together.  There had to be coordinated effort because space was tight and the commitment to getting along outweighed personal agendas.  How can I best describe this?  Wonderful.

    As I think back, I marvel at the things we did that were just normal and natural.  There was no shower or inside bathroom, so we heated water on the potbelly stove and washed up (the term used), hitting critical spots with a washcloth and then hair washed by hanging our heads over the sink while someone poured.  In the early years, water came from a well outside.  Eleven of us!  Trudging to the outhouse an adventure for this little boy and normal because of where we were.

    I recall a lot of laughter.  Interesting isn’t it that with convenience, laughter seems to have been replaced with impatience and frustration?  I just don’t ever remember statements like ‘road rage’ or ‘losing it’ and when you heard the term ridiculous, it was because of a behavior that did not contribute in ways that caused all to be better.  What happened?  When did inconvenience replace joy?  Moving on.

    I was up early this morning and listened to the hiss of an air return and the convenient sound of heated air blowing through vents.  I put AirPods in for the convenience of listening to Christmas music.  I heard the sound of water being released for the convenience of ready-made ice.  After a couple of cups of coffee, I conveniently said sayonara through indoor plumbing.  So much convenience.  So much noise.  So much absence.

    You see the collaboration of those Crooked Creek Christmases even involved going to sleep at the same time.  There was no TV to watch.  There were no hand held computers, aka phones to distract.  The very concept of ‘personal space’ would have yielded howls of laughter and reprimand for not recognizing the beauty of those present amongst us.  The choice was talk, laugh, play board games, snack (and boy did we snack on homemade goodies), listen, read comic books that we had read 100X and ultimately, collectively go to sleep.

    This has been a long staging for what I wanted to share.  The beauty of the breathing that could be heard through that little green house.  The periodic sound of one of our beloved group landing on their back and snoring.  It was so quiet in papaw and mamaw’s house in that little holler, that you really could hear the breathing of those sleeping all around you.  I guess I have never felt a warmth that comes from being surrounded by family like I did in those Christmas nights.  I’ve never been a good sleeper and have always awakened often during the night.  The sounds of the breathing of loved ones sleeping always able to sooth me and send me back to sleep.

    Six of the 11 are gone now.  All 6 in the timeless and eternal glory of Heaven.  The five left now 23 and counting.  The legacy now stretching to four following generations.  Good people, the generations following.  Good people living good lives, sewing good seeds, navigating different circumstances and spread far and wide.  The two remaining variables in the equation of those quiet Crooked Creek nights, Jesus and love.  The faith and love sewn in those early years now sewn through those rambunctious kids to their kids and grandkids.  Mamaw and Papaw, moms and dads, aunts and uncles and kids; now Mimi’s and Poppas and moms and dads, aunts and uncles, brothers and sister and grandkids.  The circle keeps growing and the size ever expanding.  Marvelous.

    So I miss those noisy nights filled with the quiet sounds of soft breathing from the sources of love given to me by a loving Father in Heaven.  But most of all, I thank God for the noise that he has surrounded my life with.  Megan, Benton, Malia, Kensley and so, so, so many others as the next replaced the past.

    “For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.”  Psalm 62:5 (ESV)

    Enjoy the quiet of this noisy Season.  “Sleep in Heavenly peace.”

  • The Barlow Knife

    One of the great memories for me as a child was Main Street in Mt. Vernon, Kentucky.  To most this would be just another sleepy town, slowly succumbing to a World fed by Interstates, allowing quick exits and entries.  To me, Main Street in Mt. Vernon represented my people, past and present.  

    There were two stores on that beautiful street the were especially favorites.  Hiatt’s 5 & 10 and Cox Hardware. Hiatt’s being a great source for candy and all kinds of low cost treasures.  Cox was living history to me.  As you entered the store and that door bell (literally a bell hung above the door that was moved to jingle as the door was opened and closed) would announce your entrance.  You were greeted by the creaking of wood floors beneath your feet as you walked in.  The store framed a pot belly stove used for heating and a sitting bench where good natured and heated discussions were the norm every time I entered that store.  Cox Hardware released the imagination of a little boy and the testosterone of a budding young man.

    This particular day, my dad had decided that I was old enough to have a pocket knife.  So I think I was around 5 or 6 years old.  Yes helicopter moms and dads, I knew my way around a knife, hatchet, single-shot .22 (with supervision), swinging on vines over bluffs, riding a pony without a helmet (helmet ?) and more by this age in life.  And I survived!  Anyway, I digress, today was a big day in the life of this young boy.

    My dad had mentioned a Barlow Knife that seemed to be the right of passage for a boy in Appalachian Ky.  They were big, single-bladed, sturdy, easy to open and close and still fit in a little boy’s pocket.  I had other ideas.  I had grown up watching my dad, grandfathers, uncles and most men pull out and use sleek Case brand knives for uses as varied as peeling an apple, to stripping insulation off a wire for electrical connection, to passing time whittling or cutting a slim branch to be used as a switch.  Let’s not focus on the last item that I witnessed too often.  “Those who spare the rod of discipline hate their children. Those who love their children care enough to discipline them.”  Proverbs 13:24 (NLT)

    As we perused those knife displays on the counter of that old hardware store, my eyes were drawn to a sleek little Case 3-blade knife that my dad let me ask to look at.  As it was handed to me the first thing dad said was, “be careful, it’s a Case and will be sharp.”  He was right!  As I opened and closed those blades, my dad spoke to the guy helping us and the people all around because we were Mullins’ and most people in Mt. Vernon were relatives.  Or so, I thought.

    As I allowed those sharp blades to snap back into place as I closed them, tragedy struck!  The clip blade (the longest blade with a sharp point) caught my left thumb right on the side of the middle knuckle.  “Oh no,” was my first reaction recognizing this would likely sideline my Case knife dream and maybe my pocket knife dream overall.  As quickly as possible, I shoved my left hand into my jeans pocket and handed the knife back to the clerk.  My dad then said, “let’s take a look at the Barlow Knife,” to which when handed to me I looked at it holding with my right hand, simply saying ‘it’s okay.’  “Open it up,” dad said.  “See if you can open and close it okay.”  

    And then it happened, I removed my left hand revealing a bloody and bleeding hand to a shocked clerk and a remarkably calm father.  Dad simply took out his white handkerchief that was always in his pocket and had me wrap my hand.  He asked me how it happened and when I told him he simply said, “we’ll take the Barlow Knife.”  

    I couldn’t believe it.  He wasn’t mad.  He didn’t crush the dream of my first pocket knife. He stayed the course that was his plan from the moment we walked in.  He let me deviate and explore knowing I was not ready for that sharp, small Case knife needing hands grown accustomed to handling a more simple knife.  We left Cox’s with Barlow Knife in its box, in a bag.  Left hand wrapped in a white handkerchief beautifully stained ‘life-lesson’ red.

    As I recall that special day, I cannot help but draw comparisons to my father in Heaven whose plans are perfect and in place.  He allows me to explore other paths filled with frustration and failure, all leading to his ‘next’ in my life of growth and gain.  You see, God loved me so much that he gave me a flawed earthly father who loved me so much that he allowed me to try and fail, understanding the value of the lesson was often learning enough.

    “Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser; teach a righteous man, and he will increase in learning.”  Proverbs 9:9 (ESV)

    I still have that old Barlow Knife.  I have lost dozens of sleek Case knifes through my lifetime, but the bulky, ugly, simple Barlow Knife is priceless to my heart.

    Be blessed this Christmas Season.  What is priceless is often the cheapest, ugliest and least attractive.

  • Precious Memories Happening Now

    “Precious memories, how they linger

    How they ever flood my soul

    In the stillness, of the midnight

    Precious sacred scenes unfold”

    “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”  John 14:27 (NIV)

    As we enter into December, thankfully watching yet another Black Friday fade into the oblivion of orgiastic spending and want, I am grateful.  I am hopeful.  I am expectant.  I am content.

    Almost every morning I find myself looking expectantly at our bedroom door as I read, write, pray and catch up on the news of the morning.  I look expectantly because Megan lays behind that door, finishing up her night’s sleep.  I look expectantly because when that door opens, my air is filled with the beautiful sounds of her morning beginning.  The turning on of under-counter kitchen lights.  The click of the Keurig as she makes her first cup of coffee; 12 ounces, topped off with just the right amount of Vanilla Almond Creamer from Aldi.  The sound as she walks by to check the thermostat, making sure that I have not turned the heat up from 66 degrees to something insane like 67.  I look expectantly because as my years grow, the preciousness of my beautiful wife, our three amazing children, the home that God has blessed us with and the fleeting days of these times become more and more clear.  

    I choose to allow the preciousness of gratitude to drown out the noise of “need,” created by algorithms tracking my searching and viewing habits.  The sinful desire of want pushing me past the true and genuine needs of those around me.  I reflect on those Christmases as a young boy when money was tight, and my family made plaster mold gifts that were given when funds were lacking.  Those gifts hanging on walls of precious family members for decades, confirming the preciousness of the giver over the gift.

    As we enter this most hope confirming of all Seasons, I look upon the little white church that our youngest daughter methodically built with me for her mom.  I look at the cutting, then charcuterie boards my son and oldest daughter carefully cut from precious poplar boards.  Then sanded and finally burned with Trinity logos and family and friends names.  I recall those precious moments that have resulted in precious memories.

    I don’t recall one moment of frenetic shopping.  I recall many, many precious moments of holding hands with Megan or our kids as we viewed Christmas lights.  I don’t recall the stresses of gifts ‘needing’ bought.  I recall the preciousness of the sound of mixer and laughter of icing Megan’s incredible cutout cookies.  I don’t recall much of the stuff.  I remember the laughter as we watched Elf, Home Alone or Christmas Vacation.  (You serious, Clark?). I remember those precious memories.  How they linger.  

    I look forward to the precious memories that will unfold in this coming Season, when God’s son was gifted to a dark and hopeless world.  I look forward to watching eagerly as our bedroom door opens again each morning.  Never taking for granted that a day will come when the mundane of today, is the preciousness of tomorrow.

    “For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counseller, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.”  Isaiah 9:6 (KJV)

    Precious peace I wish for you.

  • It’s Actually Quite Simple

    “Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.”  John 15:4 (NKJV)

    The Gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke & John) are actually quite simple and simply marvelous in their assurance of truth and life.  Sin leads to questioning leading to exploration leading to self reliance, leading to anxiety and despair that leads to seeking from a World enveloped in false happiness born of the lies of the enemy, leading to joy-less wandering, leading to the only source of hope, life, joy and purpose; Jesus Christ.  And we’re back!

    Does God want us to walk with him in an emotionally mature and deepening faith?  Yes.  Does he expect that to be our starting point?  Of course not.  The Apostle Paul, arguably began as one of the greatest threats and tormentors of the early Way (Christianity), who was a scriptural theologian.  He was a Pharisee, so he knew scripture better than almost everyone.  The problem for Paul (Saul) is that he did not know Jesus.  And when he met him on that road toward Damascus, he discovered the freeing simplicity of relationship with Christ and was also prepared to defend his beliefs because of his lifelong training of the scriptural manuscripts of the day.  A lifetime of training now made perfect sense.

    What’s my point?  Give yourself a break!  Surrender all that you have been heaping on yourself in measurement of achievement, value, “worldly success” (a sinful oxymoron), metrics created by a desperate and broken World, and trust in what the Gospels teach us and is revealed to us every day by our Father in Heaven who says “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”  Matthew 11:28 (NKJV)

    So on this Thanksgiving Day, begin the process of a life surrendered that leads to a life empowered.  

    Every journey begins with a single step.  The truth is, surrender is the most freeing and empowering step that you can and will ever take.  Surrender to the One who created all that is or ever will be.  Surrender to the truth of the Gospels. That God loved you so much that he ‘gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him, will be saved;’ will be freed; will be ignited; will be assigned; will experience true joy; will find community with fellow Believers; will realize that happiness in material things is fleeting and leads to entrapment; will see the beauty in the laughter of a child; will find the incredible value of experience in the elderly person placed in front of them; will find deep, deep, everlasting purpose through the only God who loves you more than any formula can accurately measure.  The simplicity of the Gospels lays to rest the complexity of a broken life.

    “Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart,and you will find rest for your souls.  For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”  Matthew 11:29-30 (NKJV)

    Happy Thanksgiving.  Today identify and consider the endless things you have to be thankful for.  It starts with life freeing surrender, delivered by Grace and Mercy.

  • A they shall remain nameless…

    I am preparing the construct of a new book and was reading today about the two spies that Joshua sent in to explore the promised land, “especially Jericho.”  Two men that we must assume were men of absolute integrity, incredible bravery, trustworthy to protect the entire nation of Israel and yet, nameless.  Joshua 2.

    We all know this story that Joshua sent the two spies to explore the new, promised land with focus on Jericho.  The king of Jericho got word from a nameless informant of the presence of these spies.  Interestingly, the named person in this marvelous story of God’s faithfulness to Israel and of Joshua’s faith, was a prostitute named Rahab.  The spies were not named.  The king of Jericho is not named.  The informant was not named.  But the pivotal person of this story, was a prostitute that God used mightily for his purposes.  Rahab.  Still think God cannot use you?

    While we don’t know anything about Rahab the prostitute’s family, it seems reasonable to assume that there was shame associated with her profession that may have been a choice born out of absolute necessity.  There was no welfare from the government nor alimony from a former spouse, resulting in choices having to be made for survival, no matter how distasteful or shaming.  I love how God so often uses people shamed and judged for choices deemed too lowly for ‘normal’ people to accept.  

    So for the next 3000-plus years and counting, Rahab, the key figure in the spying and successful conquering of Jericho, will always be referred to as ‘the prostitute.’  Likely shunned in some manner by her family and community, she was the conduit for her family’s survival when all others from Jericho perished.  I wonder, did her family make sure she was referred to as ‘Rahab the protector’ for her deal with the nameless spies that saved them all.

    We later learn that ‘Rahab the prostitute’ married a Jewish man and bore a son named Boaz, who then married Ruth.  Boaz was an ancestor of King David, and 28 generations after David, Jesus Christ, the Son of God and Savior of the World.

    What’s in a name?  What is in your name, waiting to come out?  What purpose has God assigned you?  While you may feel you are insignificant in a World that rewards things that are fleeting, seek and trust in the permanence of who God says you are.  I suspect that Rahab the prostitute became acutely aware of the value of her life and her life’s purpose after this seminal event that saved her family.  God meets us where we are and if we will allow him, makes clear the path that he created us to walk.  

    BTW, God knew and knows the names of the spies, the king and the informant.  We are on a need to know basis here and apparently do not need to know anyone except Rahab’s lineage, Jesus Christ.

    “he humbled himself in obedience to God and died a criminal’s death on a cross.  Therefore, God elevated him to the place of highest honor and gave him the name above all other names, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue declare that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.”  Philippians 2:8-11 (NLT)

    You matter.

  • A Day of Receiving

    To the little girl that told me the story of Peter walking on the water toward Jesus, then wavering and sinking as his faith waned, only to be rescued by Jesus.  Thank you.  You were a blessing to my warm heart and tired legs.

    I don’t know why God compelled me to walk up to as many as possible of the hundreds of cars waiting to receive food being passed out by my church.  Our church.  God’s Church.  I don’t know why he had me thank them for coming.  I don’t know why so many were so kind and loving toward me.  I don’t know why.  Isn’t that what faith looks like?  I don’t know why but do anyway.

    To the beautiful brown eyed little boy who stared cautiously as me from the back seat of that car struggling to run, God loves you.  I saw the eyes of my beautiful family in your eyes.  I saw the future.  I pray that you saw and felt the love of our Father in Heaven.  I felt God saying, I have chosen him (you, my brown eyed friend) for marvelous things.  You matter.

    To the moms whose shoulders sagged a little in relief as they realized that I was not there to do anything except affirm their value, you matter.  Thank you for allowing a broken man to tell you that you are loved by a miraculous Savior.  Thank you for listening to my words and for being so amazingly kind and encouraging to me.  You are God’s front line warriors and your standing in the gap, protecting and raising your beautiful children is seen and admired.

    To the many men who were hesitant to talk with me and at times, reluctant to look me in the face, thank you for shaking my hand.  Thank you for being willing to provide for your family and for waiting in that long line.  Many of you commented that ‘I am tired.  I know you were and are.  God sees you and desires to hear from you.  He loves you eternally.  He knows you are tired.  He is stretching you.  Please stay in the fight.  Stay present in your family.  Lead regardless of your situation.  The situation will improve as you fight through this season.  Your wife needs and deserves you.  Your children need you.  Your family admires you.  God in Heaven smiles as he watches you be his chosen man.

    To the family that had to turn their car around and have me help them leave the line for food because they were running out of gas, you are loved.  God is marvelous, isn’t he?  As I handed you those two $20 bills, my heart was so filled.  I will never lose the image of your tears running down your beautiful cheeks as I gave you this treasure.  Isn’t God incredible.  I never carry cash on me.  Well, almost never. Yesterday, in that moment, God provided us both.  Please come back.  We have your food waiting.

    How do you properly value the gift of those hundreds of faces staring back in love, fear, hope, reluctance and gratitude?  How?

    “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’  “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’”  Matthew 25:44-45 (NIV)

    Thank you, Father for the great things you have done and the great things you are doing.  To my little Bible teaching friend, I pray you slept well with a filled tummy.  This old man slept filled in ways too marvelous to comprehend.  That’s how God works.  Isn’t it?

  • Have You Considered the Mighty Palm Tree

    I’m sure like many of you, I watched as Hurricane Melissa tore through the Caribbean, leaving devastation in her path.  As I scoured to watch and view whatever video and photo images that I could find, I was again struck by the force of these horrible storms and the ability of palm trees to survive the winds and storm surges unleashed as man-made, strong, ‘hurricane-proof’ buildings yet again lost the battle to nature.

    Several years ago a microburst crossed the back side of our property, resulting in the loss of dozens of giant white oak trees, uprooted by the wind.  Thankfully this event occurred far away from our residence and outbuildings.  The sheer volume of magnificent, 70+ year-old trees laying on their sides, revealing massive ‘root balls’ of the trees deep tap root and smaller lateral roots, was awe inspiring and a sight causing sadness at the loss.

    You virtually never see a palm tree laying over with roots exposed after wind events.  But the mighty white oak laying over, roots exposed, is quite common.  Why?  Well, I am sure those who read my ramblings will be surprised to read that I see a spiritual comparison between these trees and their “standing” after a storm.

    “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.” Isaiah 43:2 ESV

    As I researched how the mighty palm tree withstands the storm, I learned that its trunk is made of a “of a jumble of tough, fibrous strands and spongy tissue, not a rigid, solid wood.”  The palm tree’s flexible fiber allows it to stretch and bend in the midst of the storm’s onslaught.  The palm tree’s fronds (palm leaves) are designed to allow wind and rain to flow through with minimal resistance to the storm’s fury.  The foundation of the mighty palm is a dense root system of fibrous materials that spreads wide, resulting in an anchor that is very difficult to uproot.  

    The white oak, so common here in east TN, is made of rigid, inflexible, solid wood whose uses are many and design, while incredibly strong, causes it to be vulnerable to the storm.  You see, the white oak root system has a single tap root for depth surrounded by lateral roots great for gathering life sustaining water, but lousy for withstanding certain of nature’s attacks.  As rain wets the ground providing life-giving water to the white oak’s roots, it also exposes these trees vulnerability to shifting soil and the wind from the storm.  They topple over when storms rage around them.

    “The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; he knows those who take refuge in him.”  Nahum 1:7 (ESV)

    So here’s the point that I am trying to make in this lengthy observation.  The very attributes that we recognize as admirable and awe inspiring can be the great liability of our lives.  The rigidity of the ‘solid oak’ exposes its vulnerability.  The fibrous design of the palm allows it to withstand when the storm rages.  God designed us to be fluid in our lives, accepting the storms raging in and around us while having the core foundation of scripture supported by a root system of imperfect brothers and sisters in Christ, that creates a trunk (life) that cannot be easily destroyed.

    As the oak grows tall, its vulnerability grows as well and is completely exposed when other trees around it are removed.  Many times we as God’s children choose height and acclaim dependent on the affirmation of those equally broken around us versus developing a root system anchored in the truth of Jesus Christ, revealed in scripture.  We become vulnerable.

    “So the last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen.”  Matthew 20:16 (KJV)

    When the storm rages, allow the onslaught to pass through without blemish like the duck allows water to flow off its back.  The rigid white oak and the palm have one thing in common, they are trees.  One suited for the storms sure to come and the other a good source to be cut down, plained, dried and placed underfoot.  Choose the joy and purpose of a life secure in the foundational truth of Jesus and the infallibility of scripture, with a flexible approach of love and steadfast resistance in the storms of life sure to come.

    You’ve got this.

  • Problem or Opportunity? Our choice.

    “We are right at the cliff. And I’ve been warning about this for almost a month now, that we have enough money to get us through the end of October. But after that, the government has to reopen,” Rollins said Tuesday on.”  Brooke Rollins, US Secretary of Agriculture

    Now is a chance for the Church to assume its God assigned, Jesus exemplified role.

    “The generous will themselves be blessed, for they share their food with the poor.”  Proverbs 22:9 (NIV)

    November 1 is a date bearing down on our fellow Americans.  I saw the astonishing statistic of 43-million Americans who are supported by the SNAP, food stamp program.  My first inclination was a self-righteous indignation of the sheer number of people receiving assistance.  Father, forgive me.  Not my call.  Then as I considered 1 in 9 Americans receiving help, my heart broke.  Our family has navigated tough times, but by the grace of a generous God, Megan and I have never had to look our children in the face and tell them “there’s no food.”  Oh Heavenly Daddy, ‘thank you.’

    “Hunger doesn’t have a political party. Poverty doesn’t distinguish between Republican or Democrat or blue or red states. It’s real.”  Brooke Rollins

    Let me be clear, I don’t care your political leanings in this moment.  I see the opportunity for the Church to reassert herself in this moment.  While speaking to groups I often reference the fact that the local church was the source of the well-faring care of our communities until we surrendered yet another responsibility to the Government who was not assigned this role by our God.  We are!

    We have time.  Two days to get the word out to anyone we know that we will help.  We will share what we have.  We will open our table to your family.  We will meet you at Walmart and discretely pay for your groceries.  We will share our canned goods.  We will choose love in action over a dinner out.  We will put into action what has become too much of a feel-good catch phrase, and ‘be the hands and feet of Jesus.’

    I am calling on all my brothers leading their homes to seize this opportunity to illustrate through our actions what we profess.  Churches, let’s expect radical gratitude and outpouring from our congregations.  Let’s surrender the thought of fiduciary responsibility to unrestrained community outpouring of food, love and hope.  Let’s open the talents of fiscal responsibility buried in the ground to the faith of a never-failing God who asked Peter through Jesus, ‘do you love me, then my sheep.’  John 21.

    What do we gain by telling a hungry person that ‘we are praying for them’ without feeding them first.  Let’s go.  Let’s do.  Let’s love through irrepressible generosity.  

    “When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd.”  Matthew 9:36 (NIV)

    I believe that a God who fed 20,000 plus (5,000 men and their families) with 5 loaves and 2 fish, can and will multiply through us.

    Let’s pray as we go.  Now’s our chance…

  • Tired & Ready

    Dad, can I be honest and tell you that I am struggling to feel your presence this morning?  I have read my Bible.  I have prayed.  I have watched podcasts.  I have sought and listened to Billy Graham vids.  I just feel empty.

    “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”  Matthew 11:28 (NIV).  

    Father in Heaven, thank you that you assure me that my emptiness is okay.  Thank you that you empty me only to fill me again with renewed focus, purpose, energy, commitment, value.  Thank you for confirming in the emptiness how you value me.

    “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified  because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake  you.” Deuteronomy 31:6 (NIV)

    This week has been so good and so trying.  I have tried.  I have tried to encourage the many men that you have allowed me to sit with and share and listen and love.  Thank you for the truth that I receive so much more that I can ever give.  Thank you for removing the burden of exceptionalism in me by revealing your immeasurable love for me.  Exactly as I am.

    Dad, the battle continues and empties me.  Yet, you refill.  You marvelously refill.  Thank you that I am okay to be tired and questioning your purposes for me.  Am I having any impact for the You?  Does it matter?  You tell me in Isaiah 43:19 “See, I am doing a new thing!  Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?  I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” (NIV)

    This week you gifted me with sitting across breakfast and lunch tables, meeting with men desperate for hope and men walking in courage and trust that is you, Father.  I have sat across from good men leading quiet lives, sold out to you, shepherding your flocks in bi-vocational churches scattered throughout East TN.  I have sat in a room with men so much more accomplished than me.  Yet you placed me there.  Thank you.

    Lord, thank you for being my Lord.  My Father.  Thank you for patiently growing such an imperfect man with so many limitations.  I don’t know what tomorrow brings, but I do know that you are already there, preparing a way.  ‘Use me,’ I ask.

    Father in Heaven, you are so much more than enough.

    “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.”  Jeremiah 31:3 (NIV)

  • Landmines or Land Mining

    Wikipedia defines land mines as “A land mine, or landmine, is an explosive weapon often concealed under or camouflaged on the ground, and designed to destroy or disable enemy targets.”  I believe this is how Satan defines those of us who are sold out to Jesus Christ.  We are, or certainly should be, Satan’s greatest threat.

    Wikipedia further defines land mining as “Mining is the extraction of valuable geological materials and minerals from the surface of the Earth.”  In Matthew 9:38, Jesus told his disciples that “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.”  As Believers, we are called to the purpose of mining the land that God has prepared.  A distinct and easily definable purpose opposite of landmines!

    The paradox of mines is that one mine, created by humans for the destruction of humans requires hard work to deploy, buried under the surface of what appears to be beautiful land for purpose of death and destruction.  While another type of mine is for the purposes of ‘harvesting’ minerals needed for life and life’s support in the form of heat, materials, medicines, food and on and on.  One designed for destruction and the other for sustaining.  Both requiring use of earth and soil.

    There is an old hymn that says, “wherever he leads, I’ll go.”  Great!  Really?  What if this old hymn’s lyrics were changed to “whatever the task, I’ll do it?”  I ask this because I am finding most Kingdom work does not involve bright lights, lavish stages, loud bands, controlled environments and eloquent speakers.  I find myself in rooms with eyes looking back at me with expectation and sometimes desperation.  With needing on top of wanting.  I often find myself across from brothers of the faith, desperately clinging to landmines buried under the dirt, meant for their destruction, being interpreted as minerals for life.

    Sometimes we’ve got to be a minesweeper, using caution to not explode what God created for good while accepting the call to “Listen! It’s the voice of someone shouting, “Clear the way through the wilderness for the Lord! Make a straight highway through the wasteland for our God.”  Isaiah 40:3 (NLT)

    I certainly don’t consider myself a farmer, but I have had some experience in harvesting.  I have walked behind my papaw with a metal bucket, picking up the harvest as he guided his mule with a single blade plow, turning the dirt to reveal the potatoes that lay under the ground.  I always marveled at what lay inches under the surface of that dirt.  Potatoes were a staple in those Southeastern Kentucky hills of Appalachia and they were buried as cut up pieces with the faith and expectation of the harvest to come.

    “Do not be misled: “Bad company corrupts good character.  Come back to your senses as you ought, and stop sinning;…”  1 Corinthians 15:33-34

    I am learning that maturing spiritually  involves growing in discernment.  And I am finding that my personal discernment depends wholly on my understanding of who God says that I am and what His plans are for my life.  I do know that I see fields ripe for harvest and have a difficult time separating the wheat from the chaff.  Meaning the good and fertile soil from the temptation of the Worldly mirage of fields filled with “happiness” that are laden with life landmines designed to “steal and kill and destroy.’  (John 10:10)

    “We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith.  Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne.”  Hebrews 12:2 (NLT)

    Use caution and faith to land on the mine that God desires for your life.  Be bold in the harvest “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.”  Philippians 4:8 (NIV)

    Let’s go!  You’ve got this.